well how i wish i could just stay quiet sometimes. or always. wouldn't hurt well.
i like him. his bright side at least. but if there's only one side that i like, than it can't be right, right? he deserves someone who will love both of his sides. i mean.. i could deal with dark. hell..i'm dark of the dark. but he's differently dark. but there again he's not dark. he just doesn't know how to have fun without alcohol. and that's more or less because he has that kind of friends. and where am i different than him? i dont have friends. like none. i'm alone. and if it takes alcohol to have friends..well i'll probably be the same. somehow i just don't know how to tell him that i understand. i keep judging him as if that's who he is. i don't know..i would just like to watch his bright eyes full of light. i hope i didn't screw everything up. cuz he could be a good friend. the one you actually miss when he's away.
Lord, just watch over him, okay? and help me become a better person.
amen.
