Here I go again. I transformed so much over a past year and mostly because of him. I did something I would never do, which just shows me how I would actually do anything just to forget about him. To get him out of my mind and be able to do things. Cuz right now I'm really not capable of doing anything. Not to mention how hard it is not to write him a messeage. It literally takes all of the self control I posess.
But how can that be love? Or is it? Or maybe it's called obsession? I don't know. All I know is that I've never felt this way. Ever.
It will pass. I know someday it will pass. It must.

Perfectly perfect

I watched a music video of Perfectly perect by Simple plan today. It's beautiful. Not just the lyrics. There are couples telling their stories in between. And there was a guy who said "It just got better and better". It got me thinking how I've never had that. It was usually very good in the beginning and later on it just watered down. So from now on...I look for the getting better and better part. And I'm looking forward to meeting you, husband. ;)

Have a nice weekend, I'll be thinking of you.
Love, Tasha

Sometimes I think you reacted that way because you liked me too. But than again I don't think that is possible. And than in a moment I hate you, but still I miss you. I just wish we would talk it out. Even if we fought. I just wanna know what you think of me. Why can't I just let it go? Why do you matter so much?
Hope you're well..