Perfectly perfect

I watched a music video of Perfectly perect by Simple plan today. It's beautiful. Not just the lyrics. There are couples telling their stories in between. And there was a guy who said "It just got better and better". It got me thinking how I've never had that. It was usually very good in the beginning and later on it just watered down. So from now on...I look for the getting better and better part. And I'm looking forward to meeting you, husband. ;)

Have a nice weekend, I'll be thinking of you.
Love, Tasha

Sometimes I think you reacted that way because you liked me too. But than again I don't think that is possible. And than in a moment I hate you, but still I miss you. I just wish we would talk it out. Even if we fought. I just wanna know what you think of me. Why can't I just let it go? Why do you matter so much?
Hope you're well..

I'm weird. Sooo weird.

And there I am. I watched him be dead drunk and said to myself "Ok, that's the limit. I'm over him." And now, three days later? Checking my phone every half hour if by any mistake I overheard a messeage beep. I'm crazy! How can I still want him after seeing with my own eyes that he's just not for me? He's a child in a way. He drinks waaay too much and when he does he changes into a complete douchebag. A week ago we were partying and we were fooling around with his friends and suddenly he started swearing and he even gave me the finger. And I was all like wut? Cuz that's not at all what he's like otherwise. But in a way I still want him. And now I'm like "wuut" because of me. I like being weird but dear God, I don't wanna be crazy, so please, help, would ya?